Update...

I am feeling better...I was really down and headed into a depression rather quickly. Thanks to those who reached out...it really does help! I hope that anyone else that feels the blues will reach out to me or someone! Sometimes that is all it takes is a pep talk from a friend to help pull you out.

I don't get depressed too often, but I do on occasion. I think it surprises people sometimes that I get that way. I do, and I am not ashamed of it. I have had some very dark times in my life. Dark times that I hope I will never revisit.

Luckily, I can recognize when I am headed in that direction and I not afraid to reach out.

Thank you for being my friend! love, beckie

Happy Holidays???

Well I don't want to be a downer, but I have to get some things out of my system...The holidays were never a great time for me growing up. My parents were divorced, so there was always fighting or guilt trips over who got who and "I can't believe you are leaving me all alone", it sucked and it was never fun. My mother was always very particular about the decorations, they had to be a certain way and don't touch them or you will be beaten! So, I really dislike decorating for the holidays as it is just a painful reminder of my mother. My father has never has never had the Christmas spirit. I really only enjoyed the special things we did at church, and celebrating the birth of Jesus. I am thankful that out of all the horrible things my mother put me through, at least she took my sister and I to church.

Now that I have my own children, I really try and have the holiday spirit, but it is difficult. We have never regularly attended church so I have missed out on what I enjoyed the most as I child. This year the kids and I are going to church so we will have that to enjoy, and I am thankful. However, my husband does not have the need to go to church so we will be going without him. I love seeing my children enjoy Christmas, and I am so excited that they will be learning more this year about what Christmas is really about. I am thankful that I have a church to celebrate Christmas with my Children!

We don't have family here, and we will be by ourselves this year and that is very painful for me. My parents decided to go to Florida for Christmas this year, and Jason and I both have to work. I am always with my Sister for Christmas and we will not be together this year, and that is the worst part. We only had each other growing up, so we are very close. I have to work the night before and the morning after Thanksgiving so we don't even have time to drive to Bloomington this year.

For those of you that have family close by, be thankful that you have them to celebrate holidays and special events with. For those of you that don't, try to create your own special traditions that will help you get through the loneliness. That is what I am going to attempt to do.

It is my holiday wish that I can let go of the past, and truly enjoy the special time with my children.

My Charm School Witch (Julia)!

Little Red Riding Hood (Kinsey) and The Big Bad Wolf (Brodie)!

Dear God, Why Isn't My Dad Bill Cosby??

I used to pray that my Dad would be like Bill Cosby or Charles Ingalls. I would really get upset when I would watch those shows and wonder why he did not act like the Dads on TV. My parents had an ugly divorce so I came up with my own concept of what my Dad should be like. My Dad was far from Bill Cosby, he is not funny and is not overly affectionate. Dad kissed me goodbye this past weekend and I was very surprised. He never kisses me goodbye. Is it sad that I had to wonder why?? Does anyone else ever feel this way?? I wonder what our kids think we should be like.

Thank You for a Successful Grand Opening!

Thank you ladies for coming out and supporting my grand opening! It was very successful and my DM was very excited! I hope everyone enjoyed their purchases! Feel free to log on to http://survey.cjbanks.com/ you will need your receipt to participate. As a thank you for participating, you will get entered into the monthly $500 gift card drawing!

Opening Day is This Thursday the 11th!

Many of you know that I am opening the new CJ Banks store in Hendersonville and I would like to invite you to our opening!

CJ Banks (Women's size 14 and up), at The Streets of Indian Lake, in Hendersonville, will open at 5 pm on Thursday September the 11th. We are offering 40% off your entire purchase for one night only!!! We will then offer 25% off your purchase on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday!

I can't wait to see all of you! Thanks for all of your support!

I am back from Training!

I just got back from 7 days of training for my new job at CJ Banks! I had a great time and met a great group of women! I am really excited to start my new journey with a new company! I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason!

Thank You Brea and Jonathon!

I wanted to thank Brea and Jonathon for all of the blessings they have provided so many through the Encores and More North Sale! So many people find time to complain about imperfections and so few forget to stop and be thankful for their blessings. I am so thankful you allowed me to help you during the sale! Thank you for allowing Julia to help as well, she learned a good lesson about hard work! I love you guys!

We are buried in kids clothes!

Wow! I have been helping my friend Brea with her children's consignment sale (www.encoresandmorenorth.com)for the last few weeks. We are literally buried in clothes, hairbows, shoes, toys, bouncy seats, you name it and we have it! Anna actually had a heap of clothes fall on her and was buried! Don't worry she is fine and escaped injury!! The sale is running through the 17th of August! After the consignment sale, there will be an awesome boutique sale with huge discounts! Come by and check it out!